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When trust becomes larger than the fear of vulnerability

Posted by Ben Gilberti at Jan 24, 2015 12:55 AM |

There is the meeting of what was underneath the armor, and it is the most tender, beautiful thing. It is something that is felt to be coming into life. It is the beginning of the birth of the divine heart within you.

You cannot cross through all the way until the pieces that created the sense of being separate are all received, held and met.  And in this, the trust becomes larger than the fear of vulnerability, than what the ego has been protecting you from.  Layer by layer, piece by piece, the conditioning all comes breaking apart.

There is the meeting of what was underneath the armor, and it is the most tender, beautiful thing.  It is something that is felt to be coming into life.  It is the beginning of the birth of the divine heart within you.

What is recognized is that vulnerability is not something painful, it is an awakening.  it is a love affair.  All of the familiar habits fall away when enough of the pieces have been unraveled.  These pieces that conditioned the familiar behavior that created the experience of "who I am," what I like and don't like, what feels safe and what feels unsafe.  There is no longer a sense of predictability and control and then this wild aliveness becomes the taste, which is where the awe comes from.

Then the true relationship explodes within, from two to one.  It is being pulled within by this gravitational force that is so overpowering and all-consuming that this human heart explodes into infinite space, this sea of light, which is recognized immediately to have never really been absent, even though it feels so new.

~ Devaji

 

William Fennie
William Fennie says:
Jan 24, 2015 05:25 PM

A fabulous description of what happens - very unpredictably - when we practice regularly.